Decisions, Decisions

I spent most of the night tonight working on my art project that is due next Tuesday.  If I don't work on it some every day, I'm pretty much not going to get it done on time.  It's hard to really mind so much, when it is so clear that all of this practice with all these tedious assignments is really, really helping me to get better.

I am torn when it comes to signing up for summer classes.  In many ways.  My lease is up at the end of April, and I don't actually have to register for classes until mid-April, so I don't have to decide on anything, like, today, but it is weighing on my mind...what to take (both art and French again?  If not, how to choose which one?), and if I will be here for classes at all. 

I really like where I am living now.  I love having an apartment all my own, filled with all my stuff put exactly in its place.  I have a spot for everything, and as a result, I actually keep this place remarkably neat and tidy.  But I love that if I leave dishes in the sink that they are my dirty dishes, and that if I go to bed with all my art stuff strewn all over my office, that it's my mess everywhere.  I don't think I've ever been fully unpacked EVER until I moved here.  Now, the only boxes I have are filled with Christmas stuff.   

But I miss all my friends.  I have friends scattered all over the southeast, and I can go see them for weekends and all, but it really would be nice to invite B over for an "O.C." marathon, or to spontaneously go shopping with L on a Sunday afternoon.  I've lived in this city for a year and a half now, and I don't really have any girlfriends, and not for lack of trying. 

So I have been looking online to see if there are any jobs out there worth pursuing in any cities where I already know people.  And of course, there are some good jobs out there in any of those cities.  But I hate to leave my perfect apartment and I also hate having to start my residency requirements all over again for an in-state school.  I am afraid if I go somewhere else without all the structure in my life that is filling up my days (work and then class and then homework -- and DeLush, of course) that I will end up partying all the time like I used to when I lived in Atlanta.  It's so easy to fall into that.  My life is so much more interesting now.

So that's my dilemma.  What I've been thinking is that I will stay here through the summer, continuing my classes, saving up some money, and then in the fall start making some real decisions about where I want to live.   I'm so torn.